I'm not driving with my mother. Ever. Again.

Scratch that.

I'm never DRIVING again.

I hate driving. I try to avoid it as much as I can, but she kept persisting that we go practice on the course that I'm going to be on when I take my test (it's on the highway, mind you) and every excuse I gave her didn't work.

I freaked out twice, nearly hit a woman and her car, couldn't pull into the road correctly like....4 times... I couldn't do a three point turn. I invented a new one. It's called a 6 point turn.

And when I start panicking I always forget where the blinkers are and I accidentally cut on the windshield wipers. ALWAYS.

It's not normal to be driving for almost a year and a half and still panicking everytime you pull onto the road. D:

And then my mom is yelling at me saying, "YOU'RE AN IDIOT! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING! YOU'RE NOT NEARLY READY FOR THIS TEST! WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN TO ME?! "

...Well...I freaked out trying to pull onto the road where there were four lanes and I kept asking her, "What do I do?! What do I do?!" and she said she was "pretending" to be the cop guy that would be giving me the test and she wasn't going to tell me. Then she started calling me and idiot and by that time I'm crying and so pissed off I yell, "YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I'M DOING! " and then she gets pissed at me cussing and then I pull into a parking spot at the court house and she's still ranting and gets out of the car and decides that she's going to drive through the course and show me what to do. So we swap seats, and she's like, "GET. ON. YOUR. SEATBELT. AND PAY ATTENTION TO ME! " And I jerk the seatbelt towards me and yell something and then she grabs my hair and says something like, "YOU'RE ABOUT TO BE LIVING IN A DIFFERENT HOME BECAUSE WE'RE SITTING IN FRONT OF THE COURTHOUSE AND THEY'RE GOING TO SEE ME SLAP YOU IN THE HEAD! "

Sooo....anyway. The point is, I'm terrified of driving, my mom's apparently on her monthly, and she's being a....B word.

Then she told me to drive towards the next town over so she could get some books and me and my sister started complaining (I really just wanted out of the car at this point) and she was like, "Fine..." So when we got home she started fussing about how she has nothing to read now and stuff...I went to my room and fell face down on my bed and started crying again...and she made me get up to do some chores cause she was pissed still.

Is it normal for a mother to tell her child that she's going to put them in the hospital...give them a bloody lip...black eye...broken arm....or anything like that? I didn't think so.

I want to move. I wish she would try to kill me so I could get the hell out of here. >__>

Granted, my dad does have random temper tantrums....but at least he acts nice around us. He only gets mad at mom and when my sister starts crying for no reason.

Y'know what? Most kids who have divorced parents wish that they'd get back together....I wish my parents would freaking split up so I could go live with my dad. All my mom does is BITCH. ALL. THE. TIME. She starts arguements with EVERYONE...and she absolutely HAS to be right. You know the mom off of Malcom in the Middle? THAT'S MY MOM, PEOPLE.

Uuugh. Okay. Ranting's over. >___> I'll delete this later just incase. I don't want her to see it or my life'll be hell.

Err.....even MORE hell.